we’re painting our house this week. by hand.
yesterday while the sun set, gid and i painted (chuckling to each other about how next time we’re definitely paying someone else to do this) and vivi cooed in the outdoor crib watching pink clouds, and teddy happily munched crackers, stumbling in circles with his eyes purposefully closed, laughing gleefully when he’d inevitably fall down.
i never want to forget this. that one june when we decided to paint our little house; staying up past bedtime and letting our kids watch the sun go down while we all got creamy paint speckles on our hands and feet.
vivienne is six months, and i’m beside myself about it. it feels like i just had her. she’s so relaxed and easy, and i have to remind myself not to give all my attention to the more demanding child of our two. her hair is darkening, but it still looks strawberry blond in the sunlight.
i introduced a bottle to her (in hopes of giving myself a little more freedom) and she was less than impressed, to say the least. i always thought i’d want to be an adventurous mom who would leave her kids for a weekend trip here or there, but i don’t think it’s in the cards for me anytime soon. they get anxious. i get anxious. i don’t know; maybe i like that about myself. there will be many weekends to have in the future with just me and gid, and there is plenty of adventure here at home. and i can always bring them with me to paris.
teddy is his most soft, gentle self within the walls of our home. he holds my hand and throws his arms around my neck. he sings songs to himself and recites books while building towers or race tracks or buildings. a few weeks ago while playing next to vivienne in the toy room, he said softly to her, “it’s nice just the two of us, isn’t it?” that’s something i used to say to him, and now he says it to her. it makes me feel like once in a while, i’m doing something right. vivienne’s favorite thing to do is to run her fingers through his hair if she gets any opportunity. she doesn’t clench and rip it out (like she does with mine), she’s very gentle with him.
this little family is just kind of the greatest thing to ever happen to me.
it’s almost summer, and i can’t wait to see what kind of memories we make together.